"I'll check my diary"
Two of my friends have said exactly that to me and then not got back to me (five weeks later). When the reply "I'll check my diary", came through - I had my reservations and worries, but I didn't realise it was left so long. I didn't realise they didn't care all that much. This is something I now know. I have been torn to pieces about posting something so personal and hurtful but I now feel that I am ready to face the music & get this on paper. Since I was 15, I have had huge fear and anxiety around rejection. Having lost both parents at such a young age and feeling very lost - I guess you could say, this was an expected outcome. However, this (what started out as an emotion) has translated into my adulthood. 10 years on.. I still very much feel the inner pain of it. Every time Matt says no to something I ask, my friends do something that I don't like / didn't expect or someone close hurts me... I feel undervalued and rejected. I use...