FEAR = ANXIETY = Pain = Good Outcome

Here is something to talk about, right?!!

Even as I write this... My heart is thumping in my chest. 

I am sorry if this is a trigger. I am sorry I set off emotions but please note, my intention is always love and help, not to create hate and fear.

Throughout my whole life I have lived in fear and judgement of others. I will always claim ONLY to be what I am "Melissa from the Colcot" & nothing more. I am who I am and my background speaks for itself. But that life, my past, came with it's insecurities. 

Here's the thing....... Fears are real. Life is real. Heart palpitations effect us all. I 1000000% (and more 00000000000's) HATE it I hate anxiety. I hate that urge that makes me want to speak out, but also holds me back. It stops me from being my best self. It gives me irrational thoughts that are so believable at the time. They're too hard to overcome in the moment. They're the greatest set back to achieve your best. Fears hold us back from saying or doing what is authentic and real. Or, we lose friends, loved ones and more. Our opinions aren't popular! (I can tell you that for nothing and as a Master's Student!! 😅😂) It's difficult to be this new kind-of you. 

Just a post to say, today (especially, with ot being Mental Health Awareness Day 2020!!) :-

. SPEAK OUT
. BE YOU
. DON'T LET ANYTHING HOLD YOU BACK
. YOU GOT THIS 

Keep going. 

Hope is here. Hold onto that last string.


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